Heartaches

By: Cecile Amang

          Sometimes, relationships and commitments reach a point wherein break up is the only remaining solution to solving things. While others believe that love has the power to conquer everything, it is also true that we might gain some scars while we are fighting for something which we cannot afford to lose.

          My teenage years have been so tough. Problems in money, grades and love life are inescapable. Like some students out there, I have been fighting with these kinds of problems. Luckily, I am able to face them and eventually try to forget that I once have had encountered such experiences. However, a particular experience remained fresh inside my wandering mind.

I had experienced loving someone whose’ shoulders I thought I could lean upon when I'm in pain. I cared for him the way he did to me before. Our relationship was filled with happiness. The state of being in love with him was a great pleasure since I knew that the feeling was reciprocated. We had been so happy together. It seemed as if the mutual affection we felt toward each other was everything we needed. We used to be laughing together until something changed everything: we broke up.

          I was 18 then. It wasn't easy for me to overcome and face the reality that he was gone. What’s more heart-breaking was when I learned that the one I dearly loved secretly loved someone else. It hurt and I wanted to erase him from my memory. But forgetting him was not that easy. How had he done that to me? Where did I go wrong? He left me not with scars, but with a totally bleeding heart.

          There was a time that I found myself trapped in a lonely room with nothing but the memories of him. I didn’t like the thoughts of him and so I started to plant a seed of hatred deep inside me. However, a realization came into my mind. I learned to accept what had happened. He was not the right one for me. I deserve someone better. Since then, I learned to move on. Totally, I gave him up. Only then had I gained healing.

          “Giving up doesn't always mean we are weak; sometimes it means that we are strong enough to let go.”